So, You Know Why . . . ?
You know why I gained an interest in psychological topics? It’s because no one was interested in mine. I was either too “sensitive,” or I was “overreacting.” I also got the “hypochondriac” statements thrown in at a pretty high frequency. That, or I was “attention seeking.” Also, apparently my pain tolerance is “very low,” since everyone can take much more and have experienced much more than I apparently will ever do in my entire life.
Even though I am willing to bet I’ve experienced more in the 3 years of middle school than most people experience in a lifetime.
Just a thought I had.
I was extremely suicidal at one point in my life, enough to actually seek out the services of a counselor.
You wanna know what he told me?
He told me I seemed fine and that I was probably just bored from vacation.
In other words, “stop wasting my time and let me actually deal with the people who really need help.”
That’s right, because nothing I do and nothing I experience is real and everyone knows what it feels like to have my nerve endings better than I do. Even though I’ve had a front row seat for the past 24 years. Go ahead and tell me how rough you’ve had it in your life and how minuscule my own difficulties are.
Please go ahead and do that. I’m feeling the need to bruise my knuckles on somebody’s face. Want to be that one?
Gotta love being the youngest in a family. Your experiences are worth shite.
I mean, what makes you real and me not?
People tell me, “never say that you can’t do something.” I don’t have to. They have already said it for me. Thanks. One less thing to do today.
Ever wonder why people self-injure? There are many reasons. One is because they feel numb to all sensations, and they need that adrenaline kick that says “yes, you are real.” You know why they need that? Because they’ve been told all their lives that what they feel isn’t real and even if it was, it’s certainly not important.
Do people overreact? Yes.
Should you make them feel like shite for it?
They say that people on the spectrum have ToM problems. Theory of Mind. Yes I linked Wikipedia. I also read it. I suggest that if you are unfamiliar with this concept, you should read it as well. I would particularly like to point out one particular phrase:
Being able to attribute mental states to others and understanding them as causes of behavior means, in part, that one must be able to conceive of the mind as a “generator of representations” and
to understand that others’ mental representations of the world do not necessarily reflect reality and can be different from one’s own.
They say that people on the spectrum can’t understand that other people don’t think the same way that they do. I don’t think that’s a spectrum trait. I think it’s a human trait.
I also think that we are often, in some ways, more aware of the mental states of NTs than they are of ours. They are just as guilty, if not moreso, for failing to employ this premise with their day to day interactions as we are.
The Golden Rule states “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”
Now, I believe in a form of universal consciousness. After all, why do people all decide to go to the gas station one time? I mean, I worked at a gas station for 6 months last year. You’d be on a shift that was going pretty slow, relatively speaking, and then without apparent cause or relationship, you’d be swamped.
That said, I don’t believe that you should treat people exactly as you wish to be treated; rather I believe that “you should treat people as they wish to be treated.” All I did was change one word. That’s it. But no. Everyone thinks the same. Everyone experiences everything the same.
And if they did that when they were your age, and they survived? Then by god, it wasn’t that bad. After all, nowadays people live indoors, wear shoes and have all of that technology crap.
And if you ever read this, Michael Savage, I want to let you know something. I was rather perturbed at your statements that you made on the air about your opinion on autism and me and mine.
Then I had a thought.
If you don’t want to believe in me, then I don’t have to believe in you. *shrugs*
There is no such thing as Michael Savage. Sure, he might be a person. But he’s not real. I don’t believe in him. Therefore, he doesn’t exist. Neither do his opinions.
See how logical my argument is?
~ by lastcrazyhorn on July 26, 2008.
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Tags: bad therapists, invalidation, Michael Savage, self-injury